First drafts. People say these are the hardest.
You have an idea, think of a character (perhaps even a plot) and sit at your computer/pad of paper/typing device and write.
Hmmm. Sometimes it is, sometimes it isn't. But getting that first draft down is essential for the process.
When I started my MS I typed out those tentative first paragraphs with the thrill of excitement. Then I panicked. I wanted the perfect beginning. I wanted an amazing first line etc. If I had listened to my fear I would have given up then and there. Until my creative writing tutor said something that has stuck with me.
"If you want to write, write."
I realised it didn't matter about how it sounded, as long as I got it down. So I wrote. And I didn't stop.
My first draft was out there in the world and I wasn't sick of the thing once I'd written that draft. I wanted (and still do) to make it better, breathe more life into it, and share it with others. Make it stronger.
The hunger to create burns deep within each of us. A fire which stokes itself for a few hours each day and pushes us to keep going.
It's also the beta readers, crit partners and the other amazing writers who share the passion, the hopes and the fears. Your strength, determination and hope inspires me everyday to keep going.
Humans have amazing drive and determination. We keep going, even if it feels hopeless. Because it never really is hopeless if you believe in it.
What did Winston Churchill say? "Never give up. Never surrender."
It has been a long journey from that first draft. I have since cut, rewrote and edited my book so it doesn't even begin at the point where I typed those first words.
But that's okay. Because it feels good.
Okay, sometimes it feels gut-wrenching and terrifying when we start to pull the MS apart. But we shape it, adapt it, make it sparkle and then glue it back together again.
And occasionally, when the doubts creep in, and the little voice says that I can't, the brave little toaster within me knows I can.
And it feels good.
Happy Friday everyone. :)